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Monday, May 03, 2004

if u think my eyes are beautiful. its because they're lookin at you. =)

ahhhs. so sweet. i'm trying hard NOT to melt here. cos apparently SOMEONE doesn't wanna talk to.. some solution that will prolly go... bloop! bloop! hahas. okayeees. i'm hyperrr. =P

lardeedahhs. OH MY. okay. my lil cousin's name is.. SHANNON! so sweet right? okay. i didn't really like the name alot at first. cos it reminds me of gen's golden retriever. SHANNON. =x hahaha. like.. hahaha. i remember telling ym aunt iris that.. it reminds me of a doggie's name.. =x =X =x !! hahas. don't look at me like that! like.. really wad. =| hahas. oh wells. now i think the name really suits her. what a pretty baby. smart.alert.pretty. hahas technically. she's my god sister?! oh my. haahs. hmms.. so.. introducing.. shannon! aka.. huang zi en. so GUY right the name. =x hahas.

i can't help it. i'm in love! with..... SHANNON. =P oops. *winks. nah lah. i still love **you all the same. x)

hahas.. i'm extremely bored right now.. hahas.. i just went through all my pictures and stuffs.. oh my. i suddenly miss using adobe.. hahas.. =)) oh wells.. hmm.. was having gastric for like.. hours yesterday.. thus i didn't sleep well.. at all.. CRYY. i'm getting screamed at!! *cryy. i'm not gonna TALK to yoo le. *hmpffffffffs! ahas. yupp.

went church today. had this. stinky feeling i didn't like. buhs. maybe its cos i'm sick lah. was just serenading to my mum while she was sending me there. hahaha. i think my mum is FINALLY beginning to appreciate my voice! yayness. now someone's squeaking.. "what!?' haha. *continues ignoring. hmmms. yupp. was going around spreading the news bout shannon. =P wee. oh. he came to church todayee. smiles. okay. cancel the smile. HMPFF. >.< had meeting for the harvest musicall.. wee. quite fun lah. was just making fun and laughing. haha. angel came in the end. smiles. yupp.. left to eat duck rice.. and i still prefer the one that's near my house!! *squeals. i'm HUNWEE!! =\ *cryy.

well. yeah. samuel jNr. aka. kOrkOR!! =x and dom .. and i.. walked over to my ggp's.. and meet my ga's there. hahas. went to pick my gm up.. and yeah.. headed to the hospital! hahs. hmm. SHANNON IS SO BEAUTIFULL!! was just going gaga. =x can't help it lahh. mummy was there too! hahas. she permed her hair. so prettttyyyy. as usual. =P heh. hmmm.. i miss the bbqs. i shall complain tilll they arrange for one. BLEAH. ahahs.. yupp..

was just standing at the nurseries.. looking at the babies.. sigh. well. sometimes i wish i could turn back time.. and become a baby again. alright. funny statement. proper way of phrasing it would be. i wanna return to innocence sometimes. =\ oh wells. sighs. yesterday was the birth of shannon.. and contradictingly.. charlene's bdae. and death anni. sigh. i miss her. and that sucks. i didn't even get to visit her? sighs* wanted to get her baby's breathe. but they didn't wanna? so they just got her what i've always gotten her. white roses with a blue one in the center. i hope she liked it.. i did pass them a letter to read to her though. sighs. sometimes i wonder. but i shouldn't. cos i know both nicky and char would want all of us to be happy. so i must be happy. =) for them. for myself. for him. for God. for the royales. =) man. i just feel so thankful now. like. so.. i dunno how to describe my feelings now? hmm. haha. maybe its the night magic. casting its spell on me right now.. =)) hmm. haha. remember my logic about that? haha.. yeapsh..

hmm.. chanced upon this poem.. and i found it ultra sweet.. shall share it.. =))

Inaugurating Hearts
by Yoly C.

Soft whispers heard in the distance
are the murmur of angels
rehearsing to marry
your enchantment with mine

An inaugural of hearts
celebrate the first glance
when half smiles are
blushed to a stir

Gardenia's meet where beauty reigns
in awe they consent
to make sweet the air
while envyng hues reminiscent of this

Adorned in simplicity
is nature's masterpiece
as brush of excitement
has painted a dream

Palpitations in sync
flourish this course
creating a path tailored to stroll
for a magical, indefinite, interval of time..

sweet rights!? ahahs.. oh. and this! i think. i'll so melt if i hear this. =)

me : -Will you love me for the rest of my life?
you : -No, I'll love you for the rest of mine.

its from the movie. Phenomenon. so sweet rights? man.. hahas. i think i could use more of this in my life man. hur hur.

ks.. i might be angry with him. lol. =x joking lah. hahas. still. this is for. you. better say i'm sweet. =X !!

To You

You reached in
where the cold and dark
had grown roots
slowly you drove them out
and sweetly replaced them
with your magic

I reach out
through the distance
between our hearts
re-opening where you reached in

the magic is real and still exists,
if you believe
...and I know I do..

So here it goes,
I Love You. =)

kays lahs.. i shall stop here. long entry ehs. smileeee. =D

I went to sleep last night with a smile because I knew I'd be dreaming of you ... but I woke up this morning with a smile because you weren't a dream. =)) iLu*

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